Entry Date: Friday, September 15, 2005
Message: andrews death

In my 19 years on this earth, i have never met another human being like andrew. Andrew was my big brother and my best friend. he was so handsome, all of my friends were in love with him...he had the most sincere smile and the most contagious laugh i have ever heard. i always spent so much time with andrew, we partied together and he made his friends my friends too. he accepted me into his world and always wanted me in it, he had his hang ups, but he was my hero. how do you tell somebody in a paragraph what you love and miss about somebody, that you had a whole lifetime to figure out? you cant its impossible...i die inside every morning i ake up and realize hes not here. i still call him out of habit, and cry when the operator tells me his number is disconnected. nothings the same, nothing has worth like it used to. since my precious brother has died, my world has stopped and has yet to pick up rotation. i never knew the feeling of having my heart outside of my body until i buried half of it into the ground.